Mood:  happy
Now Playing: Lostrprophets- Last Train Home
It's officially coming, I really can't wait I have had a horrible year here at BHS the worst and crappiest year ever with people i've dealt with is it really worth the cause for me to feel this pain and shit I deserve?? Ha I didn't think so. Hopefully this month will go by fast screw prom and just get that over with, I really dont care about prom it's just a dance the last dance of your senior year that everyone talks and brags about getting a date is the thing! YOU MUST HAVE A DATE TO HAVE FUN! Well with me I dont have a fuckin date im going with friends who can keep me company and jsut have a good time, im ont open minded about this but I realize it's only a one night thing so what's the point who cares if I dont have a date it's just to feel whatever I guess I dunno but yeah.... I really want to go to college, I need to get away from peopel who have shitted my life fuckin drastically etc for me I knwo I would have a fun time in college meeting new people and I definitely would dress differently maybe I guess I'll wear some skirts and some shirts different shirts then the ones I wear to school here in high school. I t really sucks i've never had a bf, never been in a relationship and im fuckin tired of being fuckin lonely if I had a wish that I can grant it would be just to have a guy that I truely love and him loving me the same way as I love him, just him holding me so close that I dont want him to let go :-) that's my definition of how I want a bf and a relationship. I just wish it will come true but I dunno it's an unkown thing that know one knows.. I really want to live in a dorm, meet some new people who I can really relate to and just have fun with. I really hate the people here at my high school there so stupid and I dunno just damaged people who damage others. The only friends i really care for are the ones that I hang out with or talk to commonly alot. Im too lazy to name names but here it goes Nichole, Eileen, Leander, Thomas, Hector, Steve, John, Christine D, Christine G, Nardys, Lupe, Antonia, Olivia, Andre, Kristin, Jazmine, Sammantha, Tabby, Jessica, Adam, Natalie, David P, David W, Mike G, Matt B, Matt O, Wendy, Sebastian and others sorry if i dind't add you but i feel really kewl with you people thanx for being my friends kcik ass! Well Im out Bye

Whatever...
Mood:  not sure
Now Playing: Lostrprophets- Hello Again
Well anyways i've been thinking since the end of class of my CPE today we were talking about classification and diversity like seperating things into categories and where would it lie? I dont really understand, actually there isn't anything to understand It's plain and simple all the guys here at my school are completely stupid and immature more like 98% are stupid, immature, idiots who chose a slut over their love of his life and 2% are mature, smart, friendly and dont have gf's? It's fuckin weird i've been always wishing everyday to graduate from HS hang with friends during the summer go to the beach or something have fun like any 17 yr old chick.. I need to get a new style when i enter to college i think i might change my hair and my looks....

Im so stupid trust your instincts
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: The Postal Service- Such Great Heights
Im so stupid!! Well not stupid but why the hell am I still with band people?? Band people are the worst people that brings drama and chaos down to the floor to create confusion and pain. Band people are a bunch of fuckin dumbasses who try to act kewl and be kewl by doing fuckin dumb shit for example; pissing off immel like raeleen and the percussion. More people join band is so that the wont have to do P.E, people join band just to get a BF/GF like fuckin cunt loren who thinks she's all that going out with charlie makes her happy fuck that shit, he only wants dick suckin. I thought band was supposed to challenge you and get you ready to become a musician in college and learn more about music not just to be in cause you want no it's all abotu discipline and an organization to learn. It's really hard now cause the whole school is in Generation Y, it's not the same as before it just keeps gettin worse and horrific each year and what are we supposed to do??

What about so far??
Mood:  don't ask
Now Playing: The Postal Service- Such Great Heights
I did a good job for creating my first site on tripod, not bad as my other site I've created on my yahoo geocities but oh well. Well anyways I feel so hopeless, I feel downcast and I dont knwo why i feel that way I do? I guess that there's so many things going on that I see or im involved in. I hate that im in awkward position right now just everything is just happening within a sec. WTH?? I just wish I can just go to the beach and spend a night there thinking and wishing why are these things happening to me? My Video